I got this idea to write my journey from the blog A Slob Comes Clean. Although my house fairly neat (thanks in part to a wonderful husband who helps me so, so much), I do have areas of my house (mostly behind closed doors) that need help.
But my problem isn’t so much cleaning/organizing. I understand the need to put the toothpaste back in the medicine cabinet and the dirty clothes in the dirty clothes basket.
My problem is the doing it.
I am not sure when this became a problem. In high school and college, I received mostly A’s with a few B’s here and there. I had a major desire to please my teachers and accomplish my assignments on time (or even ahead of time). In fact, a few years after graduation from college, I went on to earn two master’s degrees in two years, something that is very difficult to do while procrastinating. However, behind all of the good that I did in my classes or my jobs, there were little things that I struggled with: I went to bed late, so I woke up late and was late to various classes and jobs; I did not complete part of my last internship in college, thus earning me my BA but not the certificate in what I was going to college for (I never went on to pursue that certificate because I was too embarrassed); requesting an extension or two in graduate school for classes that I did not like and that I struggled to keep up with; totally faking it (I am a horrible faker!) on reading the assignments in graduate school; etc.
This brings to where I am now. I do things, but usually not until later in the day. I never get as much done as I could. I don’t spend time with my kids because I fight against wanting to get the things done and procrastinating and getting annoyed because they are there and “keeping me from getting the things done”.
*INSERT 45 MINUTE BREAK–FEED THEM LUNCH, GET THEM IN CLOTHES (THEY WERE SWIMMING), GET THEM DOWN FOR NAP, “NEED” TO UNWIND BY GOING ON FACEBOOK*
And, so, those are my excuses. The reasons I procrastinate. I can spend two+ hours cleaning or organizing something but only after I put it off again, and again, and again.
The reason I am here?
To document my journey of overcoming my procrastination.
I have tried many things, and many things have not worked, but I am determined to document my journey–whether I do the things or not–so that you all can watch me grow (that is the hope).
My plan is to add one thing/week that I will do consistently. I have other things that I need to do, yes. But I figure if I start small with one thing that I must do daily, and then add a new daily thing, eventually all of the things won’t become so scary. They will just become the things that I do. I will become a normal person who does the things and doesn’t fight them. Who still has faults and binge watches Netflix. Who does the things, too.
So… my week one goal? Laundry. 1 complete load every day. It must be done before my husband gets home from work.
Laundry. Wish me luck.